Broken Trust
by truckergirl
(California)
Hello, Devastated, hurt, humiliated, and I love him. 5 days ago I found out my trucker man has been cheating and lying about being single.
Yes, the trucker I love lives two lives. I trusted him and if questioned I took his word. He was spending 1000 of dollars at casinos, cheating, and actually telling others he is single.
These women he cheated with or chasing in hopes of are still part of his life. Maybe they are not sleeping together STILL but the on his friend list on facebook.
Now all of this was a surprise although there was a question or 2 , I took his word. Now, I love him and everybody in my life knows about him and our relationship. It is so common for others to see me say hi and ask where my trucker is.
I'm so humiliated, hurt, sickened, confused, and yes I love him. No lot lizards. But still I am disquested inside and out. Where do we go from here? The one thing in trucking you got to be honest and trusted so Why is it hard to leave? Why do I love him? 4 year's of lies and I so angry. Please anyone 3lse?