IM AS TOUGH AS THEY COME BUT EASILY BROKEN

by messina
(san elizario, tx)

First of all this is a great website...now for my story I am a truckers wife...kinda sounds like I'm in a AA meeting.

I love my trucker an the 2-4 days out of the week we get to spend together is never enough. I have to share him with our kids an his friends. The day he has to leave is always the hardest for me and for him. The nights are hard for me because i cant fall asleep for fear of someone breaking into my home an stealing my kids. Also its hard because i am afraid that in the morning i am going to get a call that my trucker fell asleep on the wheel.

I am a truckers wife and i am also his dispatcher his maid his cook his baby sitter his accountant i do it all...i get so tired sometimes an wonder how the hell am i doing all this...its so hard because my trucker gets so frustrated out there in the road away from us but an it never fails 10 hrs away from home he turns into the biggest jerk...He's mean an we argue on the phone i know he's tired but hey so am i...i wish i could drive his truck i would go out on the road an let him run the house see if he likes it...

The minute he walks into the house an he sees homemade food on the table, he forgets how mad he was an how he acted with me just minutes before he walked through the door...I get so frustrated but i do love my trucker....there's times that i am so busy but if my trucker calls, i have to stop what i am doing so that i can do whatever it is that he needs me to do for him.

Sometimes i feel like leaving an never being married again..sometimes when he gets home he is so tired i let him sleep an we do nothing but watch him sleep...when he's home we hardly ever argue...when he out on the road i stay home. I have no friends. I have no job. I have no life...its the business and the kids.

My kids take a lot out of me they both play baseball year round so its never ending...i play softball and i love it...it is so stress relieving but i do get a hard time from my trucker because its not fair he's out working while i'm playing...well i'm always working 24/7 i never get a break even when my trucker is home i still have to cook an clean...sometimes i feel like i'm about to break into a million little pieces but i keep it together how i have no idea...my trucker is the best though, he loves me an that out weighs any of the bad.

Over the 7 yrs that i had to stay home with the kids without my trucker i have learned to ignore him when he's 10hrs away from home...oh yeah an what helps the most is text messaging i love it i dont have to hear him...that's my story

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Jan 06, 2011
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Its So True
by: Ronda

I like your story its so similar-you wait for what seems forever for them to get home. We don't have children together so while he is gone all week I am alone. I enjoy my time by myself for a day or so to get the house back organized after he leaves. Drivers work so hard and the hours they work stink. I get fed up with being his sounding board when things go wrong at his delivery spots or a breakdown but then I keep in mind he is out there working his butt off trying to make a living and just try to turn his negative thoughts positive. He does get frustrated if I go hang out with friends while he is gone but I explain to him I have to --I think if we had kids things would be different for me at home -probably a lot harder I don't know how women raise kids,keep house,work, pay the household bills, and keep track of their truckers! You all should get medal's of honor! I have just decided trucking is in my husbands blood he loves it when things run smooth and he's busy but when he's not -I get to hear all about it-but at the end of the day he loves me and I love him -and can't wait for him to get home. I love this web site -because being a trucker or a truckers wife is like a secret world that others don't really understand. You wait for your hubby to get home and want to spend time with him and a lot of times all they want to do is sleep in their own bed and eat good home cooking!Its good to plan date nights before they get home it gives us both something to look forward to.

Dec 01, 2010
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TOUGH HUH
by: SIERRA

THIS SOUND LIKE ME AND MY BF ALL THE WAY,SOMETIMES WE GET MAD AND FRUSTRATED FROM HIM BEING ON DA ROAD BUT WHEN HE COME HOME NONE OF THAT MATTERS,I LOVE HIM THOUGH

Nov 06, 2010
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Tough and Tender
by: Hervy

Messina, you guys are a trip! lol You both sound bipolar. (just joking)

It's very good you can erase all the tense moments and then act like nothing happened.

I don't know if I agree about it's not fair that you play while he's working. You are working very hard also and you have to have a moment to unwind especially if that helps to rejuvenate you and help you relax, it's actually to his benefit as well as yours.

I don't see how you not have friends though if I understood correctly that you said you play softball and if your kid plays ball why don't you make friend with some of the positive moms of the other kids. It's healthy for the wife to have positive lady friends outside of the marriage. As long as they are not single club or drug heads bring down your relationship.

Sounds like at the end of the day you and hubby are managing just fine though.

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