Never see him

by Katelyn
(Kansas)

..I've been engaged to my fiance for a little over a year and a half. He is only home twice a month. A total of four days is all I get with him.

I've been the type of girl who's complained about it,cried about it,got angry about it, & so on. He made me realize I was being too negative.

I finally understood there's nothing.g we can do about it so instead of complaining,just deal with it. A lot of times he seems too busy for me and I use to get offended and now I tell myself to settle down and not to mention every thought that enters my brain.

It always lead to fights. Instead I want to show him how much I appreciate him and all of his hard work. I accepted the fact I will never be first in his life. As hard as it was,I swallowed my pride and ego.

Instead I try and keep myself busy and happy. Even if I have to fake happy I know its one less thing he'll have to stress over. To make a long story short, I'm trying to be positive to make him actually want to be around me and to make him miss me.

Nobody cares to be around a nagging women who feels sorry for herself. I ask myself "would you wanna come home to that?"

Instead be the person you'd wanna come home to without actually losing yourself. Hard? Yes. Impossible? Almost. But nobody ever said being with a trucker was peachy.

I still think we need a reality show called the truckers wives. God bless us all through our hard times.