New to this life and not sure how to start

by Old fashion
(SC)

Where do I begin ?? I guess the best is from the beginning I am a parent of 2 wonderful ladies and have spent a lot of time raising them alone.

5 years ago I meet the missing part of my life. He and I have a wonderful life together and everything seemed fine then we woke up one day and he said this isnt enough. I was shocked and didn't understand.

Then he sat with me and explained that the things and life he wanted for us was not within his reach with the job he had. I understood this and listened as he told he his thoughts and ideas.

We live in a small town where jobs are mostly family owned and ran so finding jobs here is a bit of a trick to start with. When he had finished explaining that his idea was to get his CDLS and drive local it all sounded good till all the thoughts about what I knew would have to happen.

I know a lot of truckers some with families some with out but most that are unhappy either way I think that has mostly to do with each persons out look. Either way I knew there was not many ways he could get his CDL with all the new laws and Dot Reg. so we began to look for information.

We found out that most companies require u to attend a school and that almost all jobs local require min of a year over the road ( long haulers).

We then started looking for different schools we looked for things like length of school cost of the program and the distance from home. All of these seemed like good things to look for till we started reading. Then we found that most schools still send u to another place to get a job and they usually send u though their own training course.

All of this seemed a mess finally we found one and he said it was the best for us we planned for his leaving and arranged financial for the long wait.

It happened so fast seemed like time started running before we knew he was on a greyhound driving away.

He has been gone for 3 weeks now seems like longer then that I feel lost without him. We talk each day and that helps hearing him makes me feel safe and I get lost in his voice for the moment we have.

Its hard on our girls for lots of reasons. the youngest has not ever known any other way than with him home at least once a day.

the oldest has my same past we were left by her father and spent a long time just her and i it brings back painful memories of that with him being gone.

I have found that he is much more then just my loving other half he is myself and everything I do. its hard to do anything I feel out of place even things I have grown to know as normal feels like something ive never done before.

I have also come to find out that I thought I had a lot of friends and ppl that were around yet for 3 weeks I have not heard from anyone or seen anyone other the my girls and ppl in Grocery store.

To make things even more odd we moved to a new home 2 weeks before he left which left most of the moving and unpacking to me and the girls its been a lot to get use to.

At times I feel like i'm lost in all the changes like they have happened way to fast. I have tried to find support groups that maybe got together hoping that I would find someone else that was going though something like I am.

If there is anyone that has any thoughts or ideas to help deal with these kind of things plz help I feel as if this is what 3 weeks feel like this year is going to be (( lost for words