Scott's Wife

by Amanda
(Tulsa, OK)

I am turning 30 in January, have three beautiful girls 12, 10, and 8 years of age. The oldest and youngest are my step-daughters. My husband of 7 years just got his first gig as a Cross Country Truck Driver, this is the first year that we will be spending Christmas and birthdays without him.

I have the utmost respect for my daughters as they are handling this better than I (sadly). I miss my husband more and more everyday. He is in training and will be gone a long time.

I currently am taking care of the home front, my children, his father (who has suffered a stroke), my own business, and provide support to him without breaking down.

There is really no one for me to turn to that understands how I feel and what the girls and I are going through.

I am proud of my husband for finally finding what he wants to do in life and then have the courage to go do it, but at the same time I am angry with him for freely leaving me to care for his father, raise our girls, and take care of the home front by myself.

Then there is the constant worry about wrecks and then the what ifs start pouring in.

I am thankful I found this website; I was pretty down today, but this site and these other trucker wives have lifted my spirits, given me hope, and understand what I am going through.