Suzanne (Scott's Gal)

by Suzanne
(Ilinois)

The love of my life, Scott, and I have been together for 8-1/2 years. He has spent his entire working life in financial services related careers until this year.

With the economic fall-out, he's been struggling to make a living and was recently given an opportunity to earn his CDL license.

We are from the Chicagoland area. Scott started orientation in Wisconsin on March 26, 2012. We drove up the day before since it was suggested the orientees don't bring their vehicle.

It was heartbreaking to leave him behind, but I knew it had to be done. That week was one of the most difficult for me. I don't think I've ever felt such depths of loneliness.

We don't have children, pets, or family/friends close by to fill all the empty hours in the evenings and on weekends. We spoke on the phone every night, but it just wasn't the same. We made it through the week and reunited that Friday in Wisconsin.

I was able to spend several days there while he finished up his time. Yesterday he received word that he had been assigned to the terminal in Gary, Indiana. We were able to spend last night at home since he didn't have to report until early this morning. I am so very grateful to have had that precious extra time together.

Being separated for even these short periods of time have been extremely difficult for me. I try to remain strong for him, but find myself in tears most of the time. I am hopeful that this period of adjustment will go quickly and every "goodbye" will get easier.

I find myself doubting that this is a life I will be able to embrace. We are used to being together all the time and it's like my right arm is missing when he's gone.

How do you ever get used to that? In all honesty, I don't see him being happy in this type of job simply because it doesn't fit his personality or desires, but only time will tell.

If any of you out there are prayerful women, please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.