Truckers Girlfriend AND Mental Illness

So I met my boyfriend about a year and a half ago through a friend. At this point he was already driving and had been driving for 3+ years.

We started talking online and on the phone. I felt like I knew him, the relationship was so strong that when we finally did meet it just made everything!

It was hard at the beginning. I had to get used to having a boyfriend so far away. At times we drove each other crazy because either I called too much or he was too busy to talk when he was up. We have found a fairly good balance now.

I miss him every night. I lay in bed on the nights its hard to fall asleep and wish he was there beside me. He makes the effort to make it back through the area in order to see me. I feel almost spoiled because these past few months its averaged a visit about every two weeks.

He has invited me to ride with him for about a month or so this summer and because I will be heading back to school in the fall as a full time student I decided to go for it. I can't wait!! I know if I don't I will regret it as I know in the future I want to finish school and get a job...that is a good somewhat decent job.

On top of all of this I have actually been suffering from what doctors told me was depression and then just recently been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Sometimes I stop and wonder if that will just make things worse on top of the long distance relationship.

Sometimes it scares me. I love him and I don't know what I would do if something happened to him.

Which that can lead me on to the accidents his trainees have gotten into while driving his truck which scare me to death. However, when he is back home and in my arms, it makes all the bad disappear for a short time.