Trying Hard To Be Supportive

by DEBBIE
(COLUMBUS , GA)

It has been very difficult since my husband left for his training 2 weeks ago. We have been married 5 years and have NEVER been apart.

We have adult children and grandchildren and consider ourselves blessed to find each other and be able to start our lives.

We moved 1300 miles from our families 6 mo ago to be closer to his mother who was very ill. She is now gone. He decided that he wanted to get his CDL so he went to a tech college.

He was hired by a company last month and has gone for his training. He absolutely loves driving. He and his trainer have a lot in common and have really hit it off. I know this is a real blessing because I have heard all of the horror stories.

When he would call on his first phase of training, he was excited and talked like they were having a great time. He would tell me all of the awesome places they had been.

They would be laughing and it seemed that he was on some sort of vacation. I never let him know it, but I was jealous and more than a little irritated. I felt left out and pretty much sorry for myself that I wasn't there.

Since he has moved on to phase 2 this week, they are taking turns driving both day and night. He has been sick with a bad sinus infection and having a hard time sleeping while the truck is moving.

He is grouchy and sometimes goes long periods of time without calling. I try not to take it personally, but find myself feeling hurt and left out again.

I try to stay supportive, if I tell him that I'm sad about him being gone he gets defensive and angry and tells me I don't understand.

I have no family or friends here and have caught myself drowning in self pity recently. If it was not for God and prayer I don't know if I could bear the next 3-4 weeks.

I found this website because I wanted to know if this is normal or just me being selfish. Our plan is to go out together when he finishes.

Reading other's comments on this forum has already helped a lot. At least I don't feel as crazy and more and reading it has killed a couple of hours.

Thank You